“I am tired of being told I am loved and cared about but never made to feel that way.”
— your actions and words never match
Seems as if this year is just revealing everyone’s true colors. I often times find myself caring to an extreme and going above and beyond for everyone around me. Today it hurts the most because I realize the people I love don’t love me back the same way I have. Happens all the time no big deal. Except for the fact that it literally happens so much, I don’t have many people left around me. Maybe I am the problem, maybe I am the one that pushes everyone away. But tonight at 11:59 pm I dream of leaving. Leaving everything and everyone behind. I want a fresh start with a new beginning, no one around to judge me. I’m so sick of feeling so unloved, life is so fucked up. I usually want to give up and say fuck it, all of it. I want this life to work for me, so maybe leaving going somewhere new might be a good way to go? I’m so desperate for some directions, I’m so tired of being lost all the fucking time.
I miss my best friend. He changed so much.
anyone else get the intense urge to just disappear? to disappear from everyone’s lives without leaving any trace? and be forgotten? it’d give me so much peace i don’t want anyone to think about me
